I’m writing this morning in a state of mind that I don’t think I’ve experienced before. Indeed, I can gauge this by the difficulty I’m having in finding the words to describe that feeling. Probably because it’s all somewhat new to me. Still, I need to find the words to start but as I can’t, I’m going to write anyway and hope that, as my Aunt Doreen used to say, “It’ll all come out in the wash”.
I start by saying that, like most of my others talks, I don’t remember much of the detail (or even the feedback I had) so I’m working largely on feeling. Well, it was certainly well received. Yet, like most speakers, I want to know what I have to do to improve and one of my compatriots, Michael Dodd, did just that in the bar long after the event. For which, many thanks. Still, I’m told that I was fabulous (thanks, Nicci) and that’s the bit I find difficult. So, perhaps this morning’s problem is not my, occasional, bragging how good I am but actually feeling good inside. As I said, it’s a feeling I’m not exactly used to in terms of my abilities. It feels strange but it’s also something that I need to get my head around in my efforts to become a more rounded person. So, I think I’ll start by taking the advice I give to others. Believe in yourself and, if that’s what I’m starting to do, it’s a nice feeling and that can’t be a bad thing. It’s just as well that the topic of my talk was, “It’s never too late to make a change”.